down in me » Shit poetry

the world is a sad and lonely place

Ani Smith — Sun, 22 May 2011 14:09:05 +0000

and when i told him to go and be a good dad
he said you weren’t pregnant anymore
yeah, that’s right
he’d kill your baby
just to fuck me
one
more
time

2 poems

Ani Smith — Thu, 31 Mar 2011 19:22:03 +0000

you should let me interview you
haha
yes
i mean,
yes?
(but also, ‘yesss!’)

you should let me blow you
i’ll probably
make a
poem
about it

i am not beautiful and i am not a poet

Ani Smith — Thu, 13 Jan 2011 23:56:06 +0000

clearly you
have missed
the point
of my poetry

Things for you from me

Ani Smith — Fri, 21 May 2010 19:44:46 +0000

Here is something I sweated over pretty disgracefully:

IN WHICH WE WRITE ABOUT SEX AND OUR INTENTIONS ARE UNCLEAR

And here is a poem I wrote about a second ago and didn’t edit:

just racking up a couple of sad sorry states of affairs
decided i didn’t feel like much of anything
no sugar rat poison
no boys swimming
decided i felt like a much more hungry child
decided your talk bubbles blow my ass in water
decided to become a free agent
disgusted with what’s left of my
oh i don’t know
i racked up a few lines of indiscretion
and decided to take your comments all too seriously
decided to live dispassionately
like a humbug hungry for the harbor
what do i know
the poetry of my repetition is indiscriminate
and i’m inseminated

Shotgunned, I am malformed

Ani Smith — Tue, 13 Apr 2010 20:57:03 +0000

we can talk about death and that’s final
like why do you assume i must protect this little hole
little girls obsessed by unicorns why do you suppose
i am so obvious
candy-coated trash swag
no respect for masculinity and no respect for blush sincerity
or how stupid we must seem with our sex so unprotected
we must be stupid we must be
because is it fucking worth it with twenty or fifty years to live
i think we must be

i do not know what the fuck i am doing anymore

Ani Smith — Tue, 06 Apr 2010 20:55:33 +0000

in my lifetime now people will stop fucking to procreate
people that are sodden, some are trod

how to iron out this mass jumble of ideas
to start with get yourself an awkward social engagement
to ripple the swaths of giant lake-like calm in
put yourself completely open and then suffer

taste the salty soil cock remnant on your lips and remember

Back to my place

Ani Smith — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 14:09:47 +0000

I know I recite too quickly
but have a look between the covers
at our special women’s section
we have aardvarks and mars bars
and ativan and percodan and
perky cans (of course) but you’ve
no need to look there
you’re special, I mean
I think you’re really something
stop pawing me up and down now
I don’t give a fuck if you’re Italian
just keep your eyes peeled
for that secret move
watch it: I can poke
just like you

A shine that shone

Ani Smith — Tue, 23 Feb 2010 20:14:17 +0000

I’m somebody’s fun-time girl
Somebody’s knick-knack
Somebody’s cake
Hi, I’m the boss’s girlfriend
I’m curved like the inside of a bowl looking outwards
I’m hanging on a rack
Laden with ornaments
A pussy float for rotting garb
Pleased to meet you, my style
Inside I’m tepid like a runny Sunday
Ever present in glossy tint
I am a steel spike glinting

a lot of people get their kicks off your hidden bits

Ani Smith — Sun, 24 Jan 2010 23:53:45 +0000

a lot of people want to have things done to them
manipulated in specific by the hands of others

a lot of willing people means a lot of ready hands
if not skillful

a lot of people want to mash you like potatoes lovingly
without kitchen instruments or clothes

a lot of people want your skin on skin, your dirty rashes
a lot of people probing rarely ever hissing no

two blue dads

Ani Smith — Sun, 20 Dec 2009 17:51:18 +0000

stupid in self-portrait came
haughty, ripe with asking
rocked an illiterate disorder
ideas flew
said I’m a pink piano
an orgasm, I mean organ
cocked an anemic wink
dried out in stupid clothes
battled the wicker
waved hi to the nomads
smiled, set traps
thought about the afternoons
cut things in quarters
noses
déjalo quieto que no es tuyo

pale

Ani Smith — Sun, 01 Nov 2009 21:59:45 +0000

I crush on this boy like mad
like my laden ovaries expand to fill my feet
like my swollen fingers expand to fill the air
between me and him, like I grab him
between lips
and swallow him until his mother
forgets she had a son

A bidden slap

Ani Smith — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 21:05:18 +0000

Gonna show you what you’re doing to us, Maria. Maria mewls like a rotten child and bucks. All slow flesh, all pliant oooh, discarded self. A tangle of limbs and bends and sleepy night rollover push back and rub. A slappy shake, a quiver, a quake. The urgency of one hundred and forty-seven sirens. What are you doing to us, Maria. A grip, a grasp. A grab, a squeeze, a dig, a bite. A bit, a bind. A bidden slap.

i hate small teeth

Ani Smith — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 22:25:11 +0000

nobody likes your posturing
i mean the way you sit down to write
distilling so-called
existential truths

no, more than that
everybody wants your funny
your siren song
a floppy hat to signal the way

you in the front, with your eyes open
you don’t know where you’re going
you’re going to get us killed
ah, fuck it

nobody wants to see the inside of your nose
with a flashlight
when you’ve been picking at it
with a penknife

nobody wants you to speak in absolutes
nobody likes the way you hang your head
everyone hates that you’re so this
we’re all ticking our boxes

Salt

Ani Smith — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 10:43:12 +0000

The salt’s gone hard, in the cellar
Salt for one, too much salt for one
Once salt was expensive
And hard to come by
Wasn’t it? Salt?
Like spices
Like thick milk in glass bottles
But I don’t remember that
Myself
I’m dipping into
The saline consciousness
Of humanity

i let a stranger tongue my face

Ani Smith — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 20:14:50 +0000

i let a stranger tongue my face
and ever since I feel like puking when I think
i let a stranger fondle my ass
on the outside of my little jean skirt
and ever since I feel like shitting my pants
i smell him like a wasp smells a bear
and my insides want to projectile through my nose
because when i say i let
i mean i invited
like in the movies, when you have to invite the vampire into your home
only it wasn’t a vampire
or a teenager
just a big man with a big boner
and me
with the perfect boner-shaped opening
overripe for the slaughter
and ever since i feel like dying when i think
or maybe living some more
i got his number in my phone
maybe i will call him
and listen to my ears bleed lubricant
let him fuck me, live inside me
while the walls melt
and in the morning
nothing happens
and i don’t smell him
while i continue charades
and i forget
how i was swollen
not with regret but with acceptance
how i was prodded
by a strange white cock
and inside my girl
there is nothing
and inside my woman
there is death
and inside
there is outside
and outside
there is nothing

Clearing throat

Ani Smith — Mon, 06 Jul 2009 18:53:41 +0000

All this and more
could be yours if
your wheelbarrow
wheels over my
pretty pretty toes.
Harmful if swallowed
particularly at night.
Hey. Hey? Hey
don’t bogart the
nachos, dude.
My urethra has
swollen to the girth
of three octopus
tentacles.
Large purple ones.
Clean, teen scene,
serene. Obstacled.
Tentacled. And a
little bitty shitty we’ll
call Billy, that spits
his sputum, spurts
his semen, strains
his sternum, into the
basin after dark.

Don’t fuck

Ani Smith — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 21:38:08 +0000

not picking up anything
circling and not picking up anything
why is it that whenever there’s a word
that word is to give to you
as if I weren’t enough for flowers
now you have to have my buds

Please don’t hook up with the helium-breasted, tan-cancerous, flaxen-haired lit babe

Ani Smith — Mon, 18 May 2009 17:55:59 +0000

even if
her stories
are longer
than mine

Princess Analise Valise Superior

Ani Smith — Sat, 16 May 2009 18:52:42 +0000

And then I thought
spurious!
with forsaken ground
here, beneath
the island of Wales
what is that, she says
who is that
I love to follow them
to the deadest
of ends

I like vulvas

Ani Smith — Sat, 09 May 2009 12:29:32 +0000

I like vulvas which look
like they’re hiding something
folds that mock you

I like vulvas that smell
like rubber and honey sweat
labia that plump when you
tend to them

lying vulvas red be
like do not disturb me
vulvae?