Down In Me

Blood is a highly specialised circulating tissue
Blood is a song by a British Indie rock band
Blood is the fluid which circulates
Blood is an album released in 1991
Blood is the liquid containing red cells
Blood is the third episode of the second season
Blood is a bi-monthly medical journal
Blood is essential for life
Blood is a substance that nourishes; moistens
Blood is a 2001 album
Blood is the fluid connective tissue
Blood is a symbol of truth and loyalty
Blood is sacred oaths
Blood is a PC game
Blood is the red fluid in the body
Blood contains the power of life
Blood is the red liquor that circulates in bodies of animals
Loss of blood can indicate loss of love

I love your third world charm
You underdeveloped oddity

Your backward thoughts entice me
Your wayward ways seduce me

Cheaply made clothing, arresting
Heavy accent on deaf ears

Native princess of a new century
To plunder, pillage and discover anew

Big white man claims his prize
Small brown woman’s willling surrender

Me
You
Me
You
Me
You
Me
Me
Me
Me
Me
You

To the one who searched for
Ex boyfriend fucking you over
No, I fuck him daily
To the one who searched for
Mouth throat gag banbana (sic)
Ha
To the one who searched for
Love letters to you ex boyfriend
Confusion breeds illusion (that is not a song lyric)
To the one who searched for
[Random phrases from my writing in quotes]
That is not a song lyric, either
To the one who searched for
Knickers down spank me and hogtie me and fuck me
Me first
To the one who searched for
How to say sorry to ex boyfriend
Sorry
To the one who searched for
Picture of girl with soap in her mouth
Cheese
To the one who searched for
Do menthol cigarettes stain teeth?
Yes
To the one who searched for
Dont pull my knickers down miss
Why?
To the one who searched for
The way you sucked my spirit out of
Out of? Out of what? OUT OF WHAT?!
To the one who searched for me
To the one who searched for me
To the one who never found me
You’re all looking for the wrong thing

Where x is:

physical touch
plentiful sleep
delicious food
a surplus of time
creative expression
genuine interest
intellectual curiosity
 openness

x = y

y = love 2 you

y = ?

Artichoke shower gel and
Spaghetti shampoo
Organic acid grapefruit skin
With a pizza ass amble

Minty tartar exhale
Chili perspired
paste and taste
And arousal honey fingertips

FUCK OFF
I’M NOT A BREEDER
constitution mushy
I’m delicate petals
and shame

I know you’re scared because your cucumber breath fogs up my glasses
I’m scared, too

If only they knew how we’re really warm jelly
And crumble cookie-like under the lightest forefinger/thumb squeeze

I split open arteries, to bloodsquirt your face
Feel free to follow suit

With cheek blood like warpaint
We can catch, eat, fuck, shit, destroy and begin again
Like love beasts, with no mask

But only after we leave lit candles, apples and pennies
At the altar

You are young
You see life in small segments
You feel there’s no other recourse for you
You birth me
Endanger me
We cuddle and kiss
We say goodnight

You believe there is justice
Justice above you
You believe in the immutable
Soon to be taught different
You birth me
Enslave me
Did I choose you?

I feel clean, sleepy and warm
Gurgly and fresh
Shy and abandoned
I call for you
Crumbly like toast
Soggy from milk
Mourning oranges and melons
For breakfast

Dive down in me, drown in me, drive me to drown
Dive, dive to the bottom of me, in this sea of me drink of me
Essence of girl, of woman, dripping drowning in salty tears

Dive head first, arms first, feet first and all at once
Come, come in me, come with me, inside of me
Swim, just a while or forever or two days in time

See how long you can hold a breath
See how long you can keep me from mine
Don’t fall, never fall for me, just dive into me, drown

Know
Read the bodily whispers etched in skin
Write on the glass pallid surface transparently
Hear the catch of breath, the heave of chest, the slight perspiration

Respond
Accordingly increase, desist, decrease, resist
Blind signs sighted on your sinuous path over hazardous bends
Curves crawling teeming writhing with scratches and warmth

Accept
The morning after the interminable ends, dew soft breath fogs its appreciation
Seen and sensed in a desperate embrace
Sweetly citrus-scented basking boldly in a mourning sun

A necessary wax and wane
giving in and up
much too soon
pulled forward
thrust upon
flung back
in the midst of a need
and the grip of knowledge

Under the pretense of play
soul correspondence entwines apprehensively
cognizant, something pushes
pulling
deeper
closer
stronger
then desisting
 why?

Waxing and waning
powerless to resist
a mournful yearning
a smarting inhale of intense words

Long, slender fingers tap tap tapping on an old, dusty typewriter
Abstract ideas coalesce into a moist and shameful longing
Each sentence is an invitation typeset in desire
Expertly punctuated with a heavy sigh

Held at the cusp of your narrative arc
Caressing every letter while each syllable caresses me in turn
Seductive metaphors that taunt and delight
And commas set for a brief pause, in all the right places

Paragraph by paragraph washes over me
In lasciviously lapping waves of page after page
A gushing stream of invisible thoughts connects us
Until finally, the whole of your composition erupts in orgasmic prose within me