Amazing things have happened and I am still a dick; these things are unrelated, they just happened within a time period; please try to love me; old-school shout-out blog post; i am a sorry girl

8th July 2010

Thing #1
Like some days ago Ben Brooks was here, but it turns out that he had been here all along. He was just hiding. His favorite hiding places are: in the fridge behind the bottled water I drink when I have panic attacks and making me laugh in front of YouTube windows and of course behind the couch. Some of the pictures in my head say: Ben eating frozen mango yogurt. Ben and Chris Killen leaning into each other in conversation. Ben sitting in the bathtub reading The Insurgent out loud. Ben making faces. Sometimes I think we talk about writing. Now Ben’s hiding in my womb.
I am reading An Island of Fifty out loud but in a soothing voice and it’s hard to tell if Ben’s listening. I want everyone to read Island of Fifty and The Insurgent right now. I want to read The Insurgent right now too and probably again at some future point.

Thing #2
In 2011 a chapbook on Mud Luscious Press will say my name and tell how my milkshake brings all the boys. A genuine MLP chap. I think it will be called this love is office lighting (great and harsh but always off when no one’s there). This is all thanks to J. A. Tyler. I fear if I think about it any more my heart will poof like glitter in a snowglobe and I will have to go to the emergency room again and I don’t like doctors.

5 responses

  1. valerie comments:

    congrats on thing#2. haven’t met a thing from mlp my brains didn’t love.

  2. wrenna comments:

    thank you for the what what. i still love you, have always loved you in fact, and loved you again while becoming a sea anemone.

  3. isabelle comments:

    Good. Amazing things happening are amazing I guess.
    (also ,I clicked and I like the picture at the top of Ben Brooks . )

  4. ~otto~ comments:

    Congratulations! I love “This Love Is Office Lighting” but I would lose the explanation. So good.

    (Isn’t unsolicited advice just the very best all the time?)

  5. Ani Smith comments:

    Valerie: Thanks. Me too is why I’m so excited I can barely breathe, I cried, I drank a beer.

    Wrenna: Thank you for saying that, sea anemone x

    Isabelle: You especially I think would really heart Ben’s writing. You must get An Island of Fifty or Fences (his other book).

    Otto: You are just the very best all the time (I’m probably keeping the explanation though) x

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